“But I will sing of your strength, in the morning I will sing of your love; for you are my fortress, my refuge in times of trouble.” -Psalm 59:16
Most of you that know me know that I love music.  It touches the very depth of my soul and takes me to a place where it is just God and me.  Music ministers to my spirit and reminds me of the many, many blessing I have in Christ.  What a wonderful day it will be when I am singing praises face to face with The King of Kings!
At the beginning of my 10 year journey (that would be the start to my deep pit of despair) my parents were visiting us from New York.  While sitting in the living room one day, the Gaither’s came on the television and the words below caught my Mom’s attention.  She mentioned it to me and I looked it up.  Little did I know that this song would carry me along for years during my journey to a true relationship with Jesus.  If you have not heard this song before, check it out on www.youtube.com .
Praise His Name – By: Jeff & Sherri Easter 
When you’re up against a wall 
And your mountain seems so tall 
And you realize that life’s not always fair 
You can run away and hide 
Let the old man decide 
Or you can change your circumstances with a prayer 
When everything falls apart 
Praise his name 
When you have a broken heart 
Raise your hands and say 
Lord, you’re all I need 
You’re everything to me 
And he’ll take the pain away 
When you feel you’re all alone 
Praise his name 
And you feel all hope is gone 
Raise your hands and say 
Greater is he that is within me 
And you can praise the hurt away 
If you’ll just praise his name 
Ohhh, You can overcome 
By the blood of the lamb 
And by the word of your testimony 
You’ll see the darkness go 
As your faith begins to grow 
You’re not alone, so how can you be lonely
I would often put that song on and cry out my heart to God, begging Him for relief from the inner turmoil inside my heart.  I particularly love the line “You’re not alone, so how can you be lonely.”  In the midst of those trials when we can’t feel or see God – we are not alone.  He is unchanging.  He is right beside us.  He NEVER leaves us.  What a wonderful promise! My heart overflows with gratefulness as I consider His GREAT Faithfulness to me over the years.  There were times when I wasn’t holding on to God – but He was definitely holding on to me!  
This song came along when I felt like everything I knew had fallen apart.  I had been hurt very deeply by several Christian relationships and lost people I considered friends.  At the same time, Raymond and I were also struggling in our marriage, I had 2 small children, I was living in a “fishbowl” surrounded by gossip, and I was far, far away from my NY family. (I know that the “Raymond and I were struggling” part may come as a shock to some of you – but we are no exception to any marriage “rules” – Marriage is hard!!! But totally worth it!   Just Sayin’!).  I truly felt alone.  You know that feeling when you discover that a broken heart is truly a physical happening…something you never knew could happen…then it does – it’s devastating…truly.  Many of you will understand what I am speaking of.  Many of you have been there or are there presently.
For the next several years I just existed.  I was struggling to get through the daily routine of everyday life – just going through the motions really.  I cried and then cried some more.   During these days I started going to a Christian Counsellor, which turned out to be a good thing for me.  I learned a lot about me – and realized that there were things that needed to be taken care of – for me!  So I did.  I am glad that God got me to the place where I needed talk to someone else.  It truly changed me in all positive ways!  This was not only a blessing to me, but to my family as well.  PLEASE NOTE: There is no shame in seeking help! 
With those details I just gave you about me, I think we need to try and understand this about others:  
-Just because people look like they have it all together – doesn’t mean they aren’t falling apart.
-Just because people laugh on the outside – doesn’t mean they are not crying on the inside.
-Just because it looks like people have everything – doesn’t mean they do.
We ALL have trials and there are not exceptions to this rule. Don’t think for a minute you are the only one with trials.  We are all on this journey of life, filled with unknown twists and turns!  We need each other!  I am here today to tell you from experience that: We have a God who is Faithful, Loving, Kind, Compassionate, Who loves us on our worst days, Who hurts when we hurt, Who cries when we cry – WE ARE NEVER ALONE.  He has proven this over and over to me even when I was far, far away from Him.  My friends, if you find yourself in the position of a broken heart….remember these words to the above song:  “Raise your hands and say – Greater is he that is within me – And you can praise the hurt away -If you’ll just praise his name.” You are loved by THE KING OF KINGS!  He cares and He wants a relationship with you!
So, until I write again I encourage you to:  Be Strong, Stand Firm and Believe in Miracles!  Our God is a God of Miracles!
Count Your Blessings, 

Trista